not having the greatest summer of my life, but Im smiling just for a little while
Hey people! Have you ever been lost? Ive been a collinding roller coaster that I can’t stop. I dont know if I’m just pulling the wrong levers or what. I’m stuck in a demented nuetral level. My hurt has me up at 2:33 AM praying and re-evaluating my life. So yeah college life is crazy but why does it seem like my loved ones and I can’t catch a break?? LORD.
Have you ever been somewhere and been screaming and sobbing on the inside but appear blank on the outside….
Thats how i feel
My grandfather did today…
and Im speechless….
but i do have something to say to my family members on my fathers side who didnt give a damn.
FUCK ALL OF YOU.
THis summer I want to be in a position that Im learning, living, and loving and most importantly happy. Ive been intrinsically developing myself and self-worth for the past couple of weeks and have been looking at myself and telling myself all of the things i want to fix, that I want to make better, or that just cant be anymore…..
I hate when women expect all of these things of men and cant even give those things to themselves.
How can we expect them to tell us we are beautiful and we dont even tell ourselves
How can we expect them to be healthy, happy, and in shape when we arent.
Why is it that we are all asking for a finacially stable man and we cant give that to ourselves?
By the beginning of this summer I will have
Lost 40 pounds
Have major development on my investment/stock portfolio
have saved 10% of my income
Make sure the people I love know that I love them and release my emotions in a positive and healthy manner no matter what the consequences…